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With nearly 20k followers on Twitter, and over 3000 subs on various blogs and music sites, it is impossible for me to welcome each¬†person individually. Of course, I wish I could. I love meeting new people and hearing their stories! Until I find a way of cloning myself a few hundred times, this will have to do. ūüôā

A brief summary about myself. I have been writing since I was 12. I love the horror genre and that is what I read and write mostly.I also write fantasy and mystery.You can learn more about my writing just by surfing this site, if you so desire. I have been singing and playing guitar since I was 15. All of my music is FREE. (who actually sells music these days?) The music I create embodies Rock, Blues, Chill, EDM, and Downtempo. Give it a listen if you like.

I have only recently started doing photography, but I studied the craft very carefully before beginning, and spent the money required, to do it justice. I am unhealthy and trying to build a legacy, before I die from all of the health problems I have. Everything I create is with that in mind.

I currently live in a new RV in Texas, with my wife and a majikal cat named appropriately, Jinxy. If you want to learn more about me, or just seek something to discover, here is a complete list of all my websites-

http://jb-thomas.pixels.com-My main photos site. You can buy prints, cards, iPhone cases, tote bags, towels, shower curtains, and much more with my best photos on them.

https://www.facebook.com/jbthomasphotography– This is only place I will be discussing photos and art. Come join us!

http://licensing.pixels.com/profiles/jb-thomas.html– If you would like to license my photos for books, online ads, TV, or many other things, go here.

axewielderx.wordpress.com -Main blog with jokes, funny pics and music.

authorjbthomas.wordpress.com– This is where ALL of my writings are. Poetry, prose, short stories, Novel chapters, and more.

amazon.com/author/jbthomas– My amazon author page where you can buy both e-book and paperback versions of my books. There are more book links, in the My Books” section of this site.

http://www.goodreads.com/author/show/5251326.J_B_Thomas-My Goodreads profile.

http://www.reverbnation.com/lucidchaos– My reverbnation website. All music here is in mp3 format only.

http://lucidchaos.bandcamp.com– Any format, lossless or mp3, is here. For those who like the best sound!:)

http://soundcloud.com/lucid-chaos– I only put sneak peeks of music WIPs here. I don’t care for soundcloud’s limitations.

http://www.youtube.com/user/Axewielderx– Various videos ranging from music videos to gaming casts.

http://www.facebook.com/authorjbthomas– My FB author page. This is strickly for the fans. I hate FB and self iced my personal account there.

http://axewielderx.tumblr.com/-Tumblr– It catches most of my posts from nearly every blog.

https://twitter.com/JB_Thomas– My twitter account where I do most of my daily posting.

I want to thank each and¬†every person who has followed, subbed, or become a fan. I hope you enjoy the ride you just climbed aboard, and tell your friends, before the train has left the station for good. Take care and feel free to contact me anytime. I will answer as time allows. ūüė鬆 If you would like to connect on any of these sites, just send me your info via the contact page.


Why do social media sites support unsocial behavior?


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I have to wonder if this is some wild plot to separate us from each other. Let’s think about this just a little bit and maybe you will see my point. You might not, but then again, that really is your problem. I can only try to explain my point of view.

Social websites all seem to have the same agenda. They support the worst behavior of people. They support laziness, greed, and introverted community. Let me share some real world examples and perhaps you will begin to see the pattern.

Every social website puts in buttons for you to click. Most call this the “like” button but there are other names for these buttons. I won’t go into all of them. Suffice it to say, that they have buttons. Buttons can be pressed to AVOID communications. You never have to think. You don’t have to type, just click the button. In doing this, they are not only supporting physical laziness but also suppressing any idea of thought. Even a robot can push a button. A human should never use a button to communicate with another human. This is completely undermining human interaction and learning from each other. Tell me exactly how this is helpful to people?

They also support greed. Let’s feed the ego my friends! I have more followers than you do. Why even show this? So people will spend their time worried about how many people are not communicating with them. How silly and stupid! Then to make the matter worse, they never notify you when someone unfollows you. Why not? If you are going to tell me when someone follows me, why not tell me when they unfollow? Because we want to support assholes who follow and then immediately unfollow you, the moment you follow them. As if they are too good or clever. But the social media websites completely support this asinine behavior and it completely frustrates and depresses others to have this done to them, over and over again, as if you were like the plague or something. Aren’t these sites supposed to be trying to improve the social experience? Why the hell won’t they fix this? If they can notify you when someone follows/friends you, they most certainly can let you know when someone leaves.

Furthermore, some sites punish you for sending friend requests. Tell me exactly why I am not supposed to meet new people on a social site. That makes no sense at all. Sending a friend request to someone you do not know offers them an opportunity to get to know someone new. They can always just ignore the request. So tell me why we are punished for trying to interact? This just smacks of unsocial management.

All these sites claim they want to make your lives better but then do everything they possibly can to make the experience negative. I know humans are far from perfect but this just flies in the face of simple common sense. You never reward people for bad behavior but that is exactly what these so-called social websites do. They reward these bad people and thus they continue to do it over and over again, at an even more frantic pace.

I think it is time for a real social revolution. We need to stand up as one and say enough is enough. We need to stop giving these sites the power to systematically destroy our social interactions. How do we do this? The answer is so simple it is stupid. JUST STOP LOGGING IN!!! If you have grown tired of these unsocial websites, just stop going there. There are other sites on the web to explore and many other ways to communicate. Many of these other ways don’t require you to give up all rights to your stuff, so they can use them for advertising. Many of them don’t have the social stigma of having others see how many people your interacting with or not communicating with. And none of them, will you be following a bunch of jerks that quickly unfollow others.

I have tossed Facebook and Instagram into the garbage bin where they belong. The number of real friends I have met on those two sites is exactly zero. All of my true friends I met elsewhere. Trust me, post something really important and see how many people reply. Disallow people to post to your wall on FB and see how many tell you happy birthday. You will be shocked! I posted about my son trying to commit suicide last week and out of 17,000 people who followed/friended me on these sites, only 2 people said a word to me. Still think you have real friends at these sites? You could not be more wrong if you tried. Having true friends in real life is nearly impossible, now add in the fact that you never have a meaningful conversation with people at these social sites, and you might begin to see reality.

I actually hope those naysayers out there don’t listen to me. I think they probably need to suffer. But those honest and good people out there, I hope they heed my words and save themselves before something really bad happens to them. You can only lead a horse to water…


What can I say to make you change your mind?


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Yesterday my youngest son attempted suicide. What do you say after that? An author at a loss for words…oh, the irony. Life is filled with this and so many unexpected things. It is worth living just to find out how it all turns out. I think it is. Then again, I have always been a bit too curious for my own good.

I guess I should start with some of the things I told you about this world. I am going to hope this time you do not write off my words as “crap from crazy asshole Dad”. I hope this time you will take my words as something, any true friend would tell another, because they care.

This world is cruel, unfair, and everyone on this planet lies. Now I know this is a very harsh and jaded assessment of this planet and people…but it is the truth. Believe it or not, I was not born jaded. The world, my so-called friends, and even my very own family showed me these things were true. They taught me by their actions. People will always show their true colors by what they do, never by what they say. In fact, those who often do the greatest harm to others, are usually the same vipers who spill out lies and misdirection quite fluently. I have often found listening to someone speaking the harsh cold truth a billion times more trust-worthy, than anyone with honey coated lies, speaking the things you want to hear.

You have to learn the simple things everyone learns earlier and perhaps as a parent, I was remiss in not telling you these things. You see, I did not want you to end up as jaded as I am. I did what any good parent is supposed to do. I protected you from this world, mayhap too much. That is now ended. Read my words and learn my son, please!

You must shield your heart. Put up huge iron doors and never let anyone past it. The world and the people in it, will take advantage of any and every weakness they think they see. Some people can feel no satisfaction in their lives unless they can, at least in their mind, put themselves above others. This is why you must build that wall and keep everyone out, but a few that have proven beyond a doubt, to be worthy of your trust. You must never feed the jackals!

People who do not fall into your circle of trust are not worth your time to listen to. They are not worth your time of tears. Their words have no weight because they don’t completely know and UNDERSTAND you. What matters is what you KNOW about yourself. It is easier to find a fool with plenty to say. It is far harder to find a friend who says what really matters. Be vigilant in what words you allow to enter your mind and stay there. Always look at the source of the knowledge before deciding its validity.

You must learn the art of two faces. Everyone wears at least two faces. There are no exceptions. Even I do not act exactly the same in public as I do in private. Some people do this because of their job and others do it simply because they know the world would not like them. Every person you meet in life is a lie. They have built this exterior mask to hide their true selves. Remember this when that person tells you they are not like that. They are…everyone is. I am not saying everyone does this for the same reasons. Some do it to protect themselves. However, there are many that do this for nefarious reasons. Only when they show you what lies beyond their second face, will you actually know, if you should show them your true face.

Life is filled with problems…and solutions. Let me say that again. Life is filled with problems and solutions. There is always a solution even if you don’t see it. I have overcome so many things in this life to be here today, typing to you. I have survived a corrupt and alcoholic family. Moving away from all my friends. Living on the street. Spending a year and half behind substantially hard bars. I survived alcoholism, drug addictions, poverty, injuries, diseases, accidental OD, 22 yrs. of parenthood, marriage issues, broken dreams, and lastly, I will survive your death, if you make me.

It must make you wonder how a person who has been abused, shunned, hated, and treated unfairly, his entire life, is still surviving. I already told you how. Life has many problems and solutions. That is the secret. Life has a way of working itself out…if YOU just give it time. Life is a long and very blind path. You can never see ahead, but if you have patience, it will show you the way. One must learn to look at the big picture in order to see what life is trying to show us. If you had been doing that, you would have seen what an negative PERMANENT impact your death would mean to others. Does your daughter deserve to have no father? Does your mother, who is very definition of kindness, deserve to spend the rest of her life wondering if she could have saved you? Even I, who changed your diapers and read you bedtimes stories, do I deserve it too?

Believe me, I know this is your life, but your life affects others. Only you get to decide how and what you leave behind. Please consider all I written here today. If I taught you nothing else in your life, please at least consider these words here. YOU are more important than you can ever dream of Tanis! Go out into the world, armed with these words and make your life matter. Only you can do this! Be careful, but also, be without fear. We are always here if you need us. Never be afraid to ask for help. EVERYONE needs help from time to time. Sometimes that is the solution. Suicide never is. The problems only multiply after you are gone.

I wish I knew more about why this happened and that I could give more specific advice. However, your wife has deemed me unworthy of communication, even though we have never spoken. I respect her wishes, but will draw a line whenever I see my son this unhappy. Reach out to your mom and tell her everything. We can work on finding a solution to the current issues…WHATEVER they may be.

I know you don’t believe in God. Remember that the next time you even consider this. No belief in God means…only one life. No second chances. No redemption. No heaven. When it is over, that is it! One Life (I wrote a poetic piece titled this), no more. Make that one life, a life worthy of remembering. Make it special. Make it magical!

Love ALWAYS, Dad


Goodbye 2016


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As a new year approaches, many of us forget to say goodbye to the old year. Is it important? Obviously, I think it should be, but who am I to make such bold statements and think that anyone cares? I am just a man. I am no genius (no matter what some people claim). I am merely mortal. However, I am a bit older and wiser than some, so maybe I do perhaps know something…worth knowing.

It is important to say goodbye to the things of the past. We cannot really move forward if we are thinking of the past. Our past will always be permanently bonded to us. It becomes part of who we are. Thus, by failing to say goodbye, we are failing to say hello to our new selves.

2016 was a year of make-over for me. I had to change the path I was on. It was not an easy choice. It was not what I desired to do. But fate has a way of making us do the things we NEED to do. I needed to at least try to help my wife. I CANNOT just sit around and watch my wife work herself to death. What would you do for those you love? I feel bad for those who could not see this. They are missing something important in their life. It is called humanity.

I learned from 2016. It was not a pleasant lesson. I learned that people just don’t care. It really is a sad and terrible lesson to learn. But what else are you supposed to get from literly thousands of people unfollowing or unfriending you just because you change career paths? I get that they wanted me to write for them. I am just disappointed they did not get that I need to try to save, the one and only person who totally gets me.

The terrible lesson of 2016 did not make me want to go back to writing. It made me hate the fact that I spent so many years honing and crafting the skills to do it. When we push people in a direction, they tend to go the opposite direction. That is what happened in 2016.

I want to now say goodbye to those old friends who never really cared about me. I hope 2017 teaches you a similar lesson. I am thankful that I was alive to learn, even if the knowledge was a bit distasteful. One should never be afraid to learn, of even the bad things in life. I have never turned away from knowledge of any kind. I welcome a new year and new knowledge.

I want to say thank you to ALL my true friends who have stuck around. I hope 2017 brings much more joy, happiness, and knowledge of a positive nature. Thank you for being my friends and joining me, in what I hope will be, an exciting and amazing new year!



A Sunset To Remember


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As the sun sets on the day, we should see what it really is telling us. There are mysteries in life but not all things are so vague. Not matter how many bad things happened in that day, at the end of the day, beauty always awaits us.

Smile and remember what every sunset tells us. That life will go on and be beautiful, no matter how much we humans try to make it otherwise. Life is a dream, magical, fierce, and full of surprises. Embrace it with all your might and never forget…

Your dreams are renewed with every passing sunset.


The path of the Exile


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Watching a show this night with my significant other, the love of my life, the only person who ever seemed to get me, even a little, I recalled my school years and the trials that people often put in front of each other.

It is rather hilarious on the one hand, that the useless people with no important dreams, often spend most of their time trying to hold back or hold down, the others with talent and dreams. “You can’t be a musician, there is no living in that.” “A writer? Are you crazy? Stop dreaming and accept the reality of life.””You’re a nobody and will always be!” “Your even more worthless than your father!” It is completely aggravating and heart-wrenching on the other hand.

These are things you hear, not just from strangers. You here it from parents, from so-called friends, and even sometimes you hear things like this, from teachers in school. You think a teacher would never say such a thing? What do you think happens to students who are smarter than the teacher and embarrass them in front of class? Teachers are people too, you know.

Sadly, these things just delay or crush dreams, and they are just something the regular people do. It is human nature to fear what we do not understand.

The show we watched made me recall my younger days in school and it also made me see, perhaps for the first time, that things are not so different now. Sure, the people trying to keep the talented and creative people down are a bit older, and should have the wisdom to realize what they are doing is wrong. However, it does not stop them.They just can’t bear the thought that someone else has a dream, a vision, a goal that they can never achieve. They don’t understand how we could still have dreams and thus they recoil. Nothing has changed from high school. Our tormentors just have more gray hair.

Coming to this new understanding of my life and the people that are in it, just makes my heart break. If the tears do come…it would not surprise me. How long must we mourn the state of the world? How long must we survive the disdain in other’s eyes? Will there ever be a place for creative ones?

I don’t think there ever will be an end to it. The average person won’t get passion any more than they will understand Quantum theory or why they cannot lick their elbow. They will never see through the eyes of those who have been exiled. Our journey is a long and lonely road. Our journey is the path less taken. Our journey is a hell, I would wish on no other.

While I do feel fortunate to have found someone who has an understanding of me, I must now realize it is entirely possible, that she will be the only one…ever. This makes me beyond sad. The creative minds of this world, have so much they want to share, but after having what they share come back to bite them…they reluctantly hold it in and the world misses out. What kind of world do we really live in? A world where the brilliant are silenced into embarrassment? A world where the weak tear down those they would never comprehend? A world where we do our best, to hide the best, from daylight?

I want no part of this world. It has no place for me. It has no place for higher consciousness! It has no place for understanding! It has no place for growth! It has no place…for those that walk the path of exile.